Why oppa still being my desktop background?

Oh naui sarang.. Oppa Jang Geun Suk a.k.a Jang Keun Suk a.k.a Prince of Asia a.k.a Geun Suk san a.k.a sukkie.. kyaaa…

Hehe.. my 1st love Korean actor and singer? Oho.. Nampak beno menipunya kn? Mong Ryong (bukan nama sebenar – Sassy Girl) tu siapakah?

Ok.. ok.. Nama sebenarnya Jae Hee, real oppa as dh 30+.. oppa JGS only, few month older.. (oppa jgk ok). Jae Hee was my 1st love for Korean actor.. oh, how I love his character in dat drama.. dan semestinya, bila centa ini… I for sure akn google him n find out drama apa lg he’s in and proses dunload will be starting.. hoho.. tp at dat time.. tenet sgtla tenat n drama dia xbyk sgt.. ade cerita zmn dulu kala…
Honestly, I can’t watch that type of drama.. HK drama, ok, I can stand the story line n etc2 of the zaman dulu kalanya but Korean drama.. mian2.. so, the love feeling towards him kind of so so.. n he’s not singer, never act as idol n I can’t see any kyaaa moment of him.. Therefore, he’s not meant to be.. hoho… same goes to any other crush, such as Lee Jungki, Hyun Bin, Adik Hong Ki, Dong Hae, Kim Hyung Jong, No Min Woo n etc2.. of course typical cool, tall, sombonk, angkuh, proud, full of himself character except adik Hong Ki, character dia, just being himself is adorable already.. kui3.. but this JGS Oppa kind of different.

Why he’s so different? Sebab centa itu buta.. hoho.. ok, mmg x la.. centa towards oppa definitely not a blind love as he’s tall, pretty, cool, handsome even doesn’t have the 6 pack abs or can see vessel arm, I don’t care as perfectly build body for man, I not really interested in that even though my housemate kind of uwaaah for this type of man. I just don’t.. Maybe that explain why I don’t really fall for Kim Hyung Jong anymore as he’s kind of muscle man nowadays.. no need, oppa, just remain tall and skinny.. (too skinny cm skeleton tu reject ok)… n of course dat tiger in Running Man, I don’t really like him.. I suka the ugly Gary (sbb sgt2 peaceful Gary n kind of keep giving surprising)..
Ok, back to the story why oppa still my desktop background? Ok, first reason… I love him.. love love love.. kipas susah mati oppa.. Eels forever evento I don’t like eels but what to do, the fan club named due to the favourite food oppa which give him courage, that slippery eels.. andwae..
1st time falling for him in You’re Beautiful, when he’s smile… as I feel like pausing the drama.. uwaah.. its like love love love in the air.. oppa, how come u being that cute… but. I hate his hairstyle in dat drama and as my n3 regarding the drama, I fall for Jeremy (the 3rd hero) as he so kawaiiiii…. But, I do falling for his voice as he singing lots of ost in the drama.. otokajo.. otokaja.. oho, sgt2 lullaby, I can’t sleep without listening to the song (dulula, see, how parah I am?).. but still the love feeling were so so so.. and then, my ciksu told us bout the new drama, he’s being the lead.. Mary me Mary or Mary Stayed Out All Night. I watch at kbs channel for the start.. 4 ep a week.. but, then its reduced to 2 ep only.. oho, how I’m dying of curiosity of knowing what the ending till I asked my ciksu again to post the dvd of the drama which she’s download. But still why? He’s tall for sure.. slim skinny.. n his smiling.. gagagagaa…. Maybe because of his character always like frowning young man who suddenly, smile.. it’s like.. fuwaaaahh….kawaiiiiii.. melting2… and in the drama, he also singing the ost.. how, I love to listen the hello, hello song.. kyaa… kawaiii.. melting lagi… his long hair, aigoo.. its suit him perfectly. I don’t know why, I really hate curly hair as its kind of girlish n same mcm my real oppa (erk, muntah ijau) n donseng y gomuk itu.. but when its come to this oppa, ok.. everything were fine.. naega, michi, michi baby.. I love his long hair.. oh, jelba, don’t cut it short anymore. Then, the love story begin.. Googleling, dunloading.. n what I found, I already watch him in movie Baby & Me, di Zeccom dolu2.. Dat time, the love still not in the air, sekadar mengisi masa lapang sahaja.. Jatuh centa kt baby itu saje.. hik3.. Then, gila tgk CF oppa, MV n etc2… retgk berkali2.. of course, I’m not having bloody nose o equivalent…unbelievable punya addicted kn?.. Its not, centa y.. I wish, I were his GF o wife o wut.. Just simply a fan who just wanna love him.. love love love.. hehe.. (Psycho la pulak rasanya, abaikan).. orang2 tertentu saje y phm feeling itu.. kekeke…
And, at 2011, ade concert oppa but at dat time, sedeyly to mention.. xdop duit.. thn diri dari menjenguk website concert itu, n when just a few days b4.. alos, tiket, seratus lebey pn ade.. full of regret!!! Ok la, xpe la.. tgk oppa on the screen saje.. Then his new drama this year were love rain (ade n3 synopsis dis drama). Tone of people keep saying.. damn bored drama n include me.. hehe, mian oppa.. but anyway, its not that worst.. its pretty cute.. pretty scenery drama. Come on la, 2 zaman drama, 70s and 2012.. so, for sure, the 70s feeling can’t be digested by most of us.. Whatever, I still love his look the most in the drama. Maybe, because the partner, itu adik yoona too skinny, so, oppa near her, look a bit manly.. boleh? Frens, keep saying he’s too pretty, too girlish. And scene dia dgn yoona, its dat both girl? ---> kata ko!!!! MARAH… hehe.. oppa cool ok. The pretty side of him also cool. Come on lah guys, it’s not a sin to be pretty even more prettier than a girl..
Cakap2 orang. Kutukan orang.. totally being ignored.. haha.. bila la nk fall out of love with oppa ni.. maybe when he’s getting older, of course so do I as we share the same year of 1987.. kan? Oppa… kuiiii3…

Di saat jiwa kosong, menaip n3 menggunakan bahasa y suka hati ko je…but its still better, typing n3, y converting e = 3 n etc2. eg: b3st 5gt... Its annoying ok, stop it, terutamanya, adik2 muda remaja, tiba2..

PS: neomu2.. sarangheyo oppa… ^.^

---> I’m not hentai for sure, its just innocently, purely love of a fan..

Me & Glasses for 12 years

Ok, spectacles to be exact as glasses seem like one of amorphous material – aha, I miss my material physics again.

I’m wearing it since form 1, I guess. It was bout 12 years already. Oho, I’m sound like an old young lady.. (hehe, boleh?)

Being diagnose having difficulty in sighted, it’s totally not a surprising thing as in my family; half of them depend on this to see with clearer view.

Check out this chronology, (suddenly feel like typing this kind of n3 as I just bought a new one – hoho)

I get my first glasses at Rosmadi Optometrist, in front of The Store KB, the yellow building, the one with McD in the same building but currently the building turn to red colour and being a cloth store, I think.. bring back the yellow colour The Store. Huhu..

At first, I just feel like dizzy2. When I read, its some kind of blurry vision. And ask my ayah to get me the spectacles. But I guess, actually the dizziness doesn’t that much but the gedikness to wear one is much more. . Haha.. and guess what, my ayah were anxiously to bring me over some kind of medical expert to get treatment as he worry much bout my health. A child who experience kidney problem at her 8 years old, my parents surely having trouble whenever I complain having some kind of pain. Ok, ayah and mak love my siblings evenly but because the hospitalized nightmare, towards me, they like.. being worried for a little too much..

Ok, then.. optometrist, should I call Dr. for the first, they ask me whether I can’t see far or short distance. And as naïve little 13 years old girl, I just reply. Ermmm.. not surelah. And the Dr ask me whether I can see plat number of a car. And I think I said, yes. Then, based on my symptom, the Dr said, u have problem for short distance. Let’s do the eye check up. The E o u N H and etc2. Then, choose the frame. I guess for the start, my power were just bout +1.00. ok it was +ve!! As it short distance. For the frame, I think I want the frameless one as its some kind of stylo at that time (ok, nak sama dgn Dr Paul). I remember, my favourite character, Dr Paul in medical HK drama wearing one, oho, its super kakkoii. Where are you right now?? Aha. But I still remember, the Dr said; that type easily break down, as a child like u.. ermm.. ok, I’m gonna choose, the dark blue colour with half frame one.
Yatta.. new specs.. new image (konon).. but.. oho.. wearing one doesn’t really comfortable. Yes, I can read more clearer. The headache and dizziness reduce. But.. to have something on your nose, on your ears.. aarghhhh….

After a year plus, I can’t see very well even using the specs. Then, I guess, I need a new one as my friend said, the power of the lens could be increase as you just wear on off. Ok, matta. This time, I’m using my scholarship money (I just get it, yeaa.. – excellent student ok – hoho).. The second one, I bought with my mom at Wakaf Bharu. Forgot the name but the optometrist this time were a lady. Very soft spoken one. Then, the check up begin.. o’oo.. Guess what? The power not +ve but –ve!!.. I think around -1.5 or 2.0.. (not that much)..

Ok, the Dr explain to me that, my problem changing from short distance to far distance. But it supposed be as the one with short distance problem were ahjuma ahjussi.. not, a teenage like me.. (ehe, form 2 or form 3 that time, teenage ok!!!).. then, yeaa… new spec again. Frameless light blue (teenage, can wear it.. forgot bout the tendency to broken down).. lalala…
And matta, I guess.. I wear it whenever I want. Just when I watch HK drama to see the subtitle more clearer.. haha…

Then.. form 4.. enter the MRSM KT – oho, the nightmare of study begin, the tons of homework begin, the miserable life without water begin and also the most memorable school life also begin. As the spec were not always on my nose, I just bring it in my pocket but the baju kurung for prep doesn’t have one. So, after prep, perform the prayer. No pocket, then just put down wherever. and then, there’s a time. Oh, where a you, little glasses. Disappear!!.. ok, maybe I left it somewhere.. hehe.. its not only once happen ok.. and yatta.. found.. but.. (T.T).. the glasses broke down into 2 pieces.. uhuks3.. ok.. balik kampong, buy new one.. new specs.. matta.. yea yea..
This time I buy at Kota Bharu, near the bus station, now the building already gone and turn to Parkson I guess. This time, matta.. frameless.. blue one.. still not wearing it too much..

UTM… Forecast student. MARA already give the money.. so, shopping time.. haha.. ok, I’m not that shopaholic, just buy the necessary (eh???).. and one time, I accompany Cik Norlah to but a new spectales at Focus Point, in Jusco Taman U. o’ooo… there’s promotion. If you buy 2, there will be discount. Oho, after wavering a few minutes (eh???).. yes, I nak jugak. The power this time a bit higher. -2.5 I think.. Andwaee….. this time, half frame. And guess, its super colourful, turquoise with green and black.. otoke, I choose that one at that time. Some kind of regret feeling actually.. so, please don’t wavering and buy anything on a whim.
Matta, even though, can’t see much, still doesn’t were too much as the specs totally not comfy and people some kind, canteknya specs lin. Its feel weird…

Then, I think I went alone to the Taman U or with Cik Zati – stress time, maybe. But, also having trouble with my view. So, decide, buy a new one. I go to the optometrist in front of the Jusco. Eye check up. Oho.. the power increase a bit much. -3.00.. ok, that’s explain why. buy a new one.. frameless, black and white. The glass a bit thick, dai kiraaii.. (cheap lens)…

Ok, this time around, I wear it more obediently as can’t see a way too much without it.

Graduation.. yattaa2….

Working experience begin. Starting to become an adult.
And new image, of course.. hehe..
So, with the salary not that much, I buy a new one at focus point KB Mall. Hoho.. and guess what, the power for this time, reduce.. yatta2… perhaps, by wearing it more obediently and taking lots of vitamin A from carrot.. its surely work. The power this time, -2.50. choose a full frame brown colour. not very long time wearing it, my adik, itu syamir Gomuk, step on it.. warghhh… not broken as it were full frame but the frame kind of.. I can’t wear it.. but. You know, as not having much money and still in hunting job period.. it were despretooo… so, go to the focus point, please repair this, onegaaaiiii…. Ok, done, but still not very ok2.. but wear it laah…

Then.. Nuclear Malaysia. Starting this time, I’m wearing the contact lenses. New Image ok as government officer.. (gehh.. sila batuk)… but.. wearing lens, its really take time and LECEH for super lazy lady like me.. (lady dh)… then, I end up wearing it for just half year. And when I deserted at Langkawi island, end of 2010.. (coordinate a course there)… being totally alone is a big no no for me.. as, I’m gonna wandering alone and will buy anything I’m afford to. Andwae…. Then, ACCIDENTALLY entering the optometrist.. SALE!!!... EYE CHECK UP.. matta.. but the power this time around -1.25 only? I did ask for recheck twice as its like unbelievable (siap gaduh2 manja ngan amoi optometrist tu, aigoo).. ok, accepted. Bought the full frame, red brown one..

Then, starting that point, not really wear it. Just wearing in when I’m driving and really need to. Contact lens, seldomly as the liquid already expired, I throw 1 bottle ok (sangat membazir)..

Then.. wear it bout a year plus.. bored with it already and whenever I’m driving when the sun were hotly shining (agagaga???).. my eyes hurting and I wear the specs with sunglasses to avoid that. Super uncomfortable. Then, there’s a time, I go out on a “date” with cik masz and the mines, then, I found it, a bit cheap specs at A Look Store. So, ok, next month, I’m gonna buy it.

The next month already coming. And that Saturday look forward to buy that specs. But, unexpected things occurred. Sayonara cik masz. As I’m going home but thinking super blank super bored but to go to the mines hitori2, its impossible for me. Then, ok, alamanda. Go to survey a few optometrist store. But I’m ended not buying any as a bit higher price compare with ALook. Then, home… but still, feel like really desperately need it. Then, heading to EconSave. Just a bit unpopular store. And lastly, I end up buying a new one. Bit expensive but whateverlaah. The power this time is -1.5, 0.5 for the silau view. Yeah.. same power for both eyes. Make it easier to buy the lens. Am I gonna wear them again? Here, the list of specs I’ve had in this 12 years.

1) Dark Blue Half Frame
2) Light Blue frameless
3) Blue frameless
4) Turquoise, Green and Black halframe
5) Black and White Frameless
6) Brown full frame
7) Red brown full frame
8) Dark Blue Purple full frame

8 specs within 12 years.. oh?? Super panjang n3.. hehe.. (^.^)

My new specs

My new lens: I only bought grey colour o colourless as grey colour is super fake and colourless just real.. hehe..

When people talk like they were in ur shoes.. Should I say: domo arigatou or just SHUT up!!!

Problems.. Keep gathering, arising, increasing, multiplying..
As aging process take part.. slow slow slowly.. Why it doesn’t decay and vanished? I’m really curioussss..

As positive “me” always say: Dugaan hidup, learning process, ada la hikmahnya tu n blah2… But its kind of.. irritated, when, people said: oh, its dat really can happen? But before this, it’s never happen?
And this me, gonna said: oh, really, that before is when? Itsu? Eonje? Bareba.. but that before, definitely not me right? (MARAHHH)

And regretful to tell the truth is; always, I’m turn to somehow, ungrateful human.
Ok, bumi mana tak ditimpa hujan.. I know it, realize it.. Other people also facing those problems. Those arinaitsuno matters. People also keep asking; why me?.. Oho, how ungrateful.. u’ve given everything already, just please stop asking for more. We have to being thankful for who we are. And yes, it’s doesn’t mean, we have to stop trying to make our life better. It’s surely been ask by religion and also any other view.

When having some kind problematic event, which I try to just running away. But, this not very young lady for sure could not run that much. And of course will dragged back facing those with depress feeling. Wanna die feeling (exaggerate, Istighfar).. uh uh uh.. shaking head..

Actually;I try hard to change it. Try to be cool.. Try not to become angered towards my own self all the time. Annoyed feeling please, just get lost n don’t ever using GPS or wutever equivalent to find ur way back. There’s nothing going to change, even u piercing ur heart hardly (hyperbolically). Sitting down n waiting for good news, it’s really pathetic action to be made, yet, I’m always do that. Menunggu bulan jatuh ke riba. What gonna happen to ur lap? Oh.. It’s the moon… it’s not going to effect ur lap only but whole earth, whole milky way, I guess.. I’m not complaining the Malay idiom as English or Chinese Idiom isn’t exceptional. I just simply typing anything crossing my mind right now..

Oh, people. As my n3 earlier, just don’t claiming u’re empathy or sympathy.. Neither one, I really care. And this mouth always said when having trouble: I give up. People will said: linn, dameyo.. fighting for some more. And me: speechless for a moment. And reply: if u’re me, than, wut u can do? People: errr.. There will always a way of solution or perhaps to make it better. Try to do this, try to do that .. oho, me: u’re not me, all the suggestion .. were… ________________

The conclusion: if u’re not me, just stop giving suggestion which is gonna irritating me more. Ok, just talk whenever I ask. And this me: please don’t ask. Just crack down ur head by ur own.. arghhh..

N3 heartache and brainache.. mental breakdown.. Insomnia for this whole week.. aha.. n 1 of the GP (my participant) ask me to do a medical checkup as I’m showing anemia symptom. Eh???? Colleague said: eh, not even pregnant, yet anemia. Me: I don’t think so, just, I’m stressing over lots of matter.. n yes for sure, I’m not PREGNANT.. oho, please… (-.-“) --> feel some kind of jealous over pregnant women, as their condition will be the reason over lots of thing..

Today: a bit dizzy2, when keep mistaken which floor I have being.. aigoo...
uh uh uh uh (singing I wish by FT Island, Jeremy super kawaiiii)…

Just stop reading the FB comment, can u?

"n3" ini akan ditaip dalam bahasa melayu sepenuhnya, tp n3, ttp n3, blh?

Sekarang ni, suka sangat baca informasi2 y dikongsi oleh rakan2 di fb.

Entah mengapa, komen2 kwn2 kerap mengundang kemarahan di hati.

Kadang-kadang juga, sy akui ada betulnya tapi banyak tak betulnya juga.

Tapi, rakan-rakan ini, seperti sangat2 betul. Boleh tak sebelum menaip, fikir sedikit tentang orang lain. Jgn kerana ketaksuban anda, ramai pula dapat dosa percuma sbb maki anda dlm hati termasuk la sy sdri.

Mungkin kekhilafan berbicara dalam isu politik, boleh dimaafkan. Isu olimpik, blh juga. (frust la jgk tp xpe, usaha y terbaik, korang y kutuk lebih2, korang mmpu ke? tak kn.. jadi, zip mulut anda, bendung (mcm slh je perkataan ini) tangan anda.

Tapi kalau isu hadith, ayat Quran, hukum hakam Islam.

Astagfirullah.. kwn, sebelum kongsi sesuatu itu, ada baiknya selidiki dulu.

Baik, dia dh selidik, betul. Bila ditanya, tanya siapa? kawan yang macam alim pun setuju.

Kwn y mcm alim ????

Mungkin ilmu saya tidak sebanyak mana dan status fb saya hanyalah menceritakan kestressan kerja sy atau kegembiraan melihat wjh2 kacak "imaginary oppa". Juga video mat upi y mmg xmcm Eun Hyuk oppa itu.

Apa-apalah (whatever)

Nota:

Sebenarnya saya sakit hati baca komen pasal ketiadaan air di kelantan. Semua menuduh mkcik itu menipu mentang-mentang rumah diorang di daerah y sama, byk sgt air.. Semua cakap isu politik. Politik x politik. Memang air takde ok, suka hati korang je ckp xbyr bil dan etc2. nak salahkan sesiapa, teruskan (saya xnk sokong mana2, ada betulnya, ada salahnya). tapi jgn la komen y sgt "annoying" spt, bersyukur la mkcik oi, org somalia lg truk, "boaaa"? (dgn nada tinggi).. kalau, takat xpenah rasa ketiadaan air ini, jgn komen dengan perkataan2 sarkastik.. saya pernah alami krisis air yang kronik sewaktu di asrama mrsm kuala terengganu. 2 tahun beb, terseksa, menangis hari2 kot. lenguhnya tgn angkut baldi, sakitnya hati tgk air tumpah dari bldi y diangkut. Korang, penah rasa ke? Ada juga y komen, nenek aku dulu gali telaga, rilek je? halo halo, tuan, nenek anda, bkn anda, dannn... dulu, bukan sekarang.

Dan hakikatnya, tiap kali blk kg, rumah saya tiadaa air juga.. dan derita itu, saya saja y alami.. dan kalau sy jd mkcik itu.. grrrrrr.... (mau sy deactivate FB sy)...

Jangan cuba samakan situasi yang tak sama dan taip mkcik y bodoh. Bulan-bulan puasa, bodohkan org, tuduh org menipu dan etc. oh, mulia sgt ke?... Cubalah komen, tumpang simpati, doakn y terbaik, moga tabah hadapi dugaan dan byk lg perkataan y mulia dan baik dan membina. Andai dia menipu, anda tak tggg dosa beliau, bkn?

ok, komen dia je y berpekataan y tidak elok, hati dia baik? oho... ermm... eh... (saya berfikir sejenak)....

Benci sangat dengan orang yang kononnya bersyukur dengan hidup masing-masing dan nyatakan pendapat merepek mereka y sgt "bias" dan ramai pula yang suka.. Jangan halalkan benda y haram dan sebaliknya.

Sesungguhnya, saya memang tak kan fhm org2 begini.

Pesanan Akhir: Don't Simply Judge the Other Pain, Hardship n etc2 because who are you actuaaly is, to judge?

K, bye...

Nota 2: Memang agak sukar taip n3 tanpa campur bahasa lain.. (-.-")

oho.. depress mode lg.. my email being hacking!!!

Depress mode in this fasting month.

Its Ramadhan, but I just can't stop myself from cursing to the unknown hackers.

Tsk.. tsk.. tsk.. oh, hackers, just take part in the bloody monday 3 jdrama, u can help Fujimaru-kun hacking the terrorist..

I just can't stop being annoyed...

What the what do you thinking to hack my email. Email yahoo, fine, I can re-register anytime anywhere. But not the one with @nuclearmalaysia.gov.my.

and also not one week before the course began.

cukup cukup sudah.. I can't bear this..

Oho..

Chronology:

1) My inbox reach the limit, I guess its happen in every month and too lazy to back up and delete.. so let it be.. but almost every day, receive the damn email. You reach you quota limit, please delete some.. ok, ok wakatta.. and I guess I click the link because its damn annoying and for additional reason, this mr acer, some time like. not responding and etc2, and this very tak sabar me, clicking around. gehhhh....

2) Later, I just get my own PC back (I think its being almost 1 year, did not use it). Install all the stuff, connect to the printer.. Its just came out that great.. yatta.. yatta.. happy desss..

3) Then lg.. Open my email.. Suddenly, 10 inbox, 20 and up to 30, I guess. Sent item to unknown with attachment (kind of spam) and its automatically, about tone of address, yes, truly, I didn't press any single key. Receive thank you email and yes of course, cursing mail from unknown, mail failure notice and etc2..

4) The next day, I send email to one of my colleague.. And guess what, instead of syazlin, I turn to be "G:. And whenever the recipient mail reply, its reply to unknown address. What the What? Trying to change password, but I just can't.

5) The next day lagi, I try do the changes. Ok, its became syazlin again and I can receive the reply but just few hours. Its turn to be G again.. and sent item keep icreasing, inbox too, up till hundred I guess. Delete2.. depress.. depress.. then, ok give up.. call IT department.. but.. before that, Email - mail server error. oho!!!!!... call IT.. they keep asking lots of question, and I just freaking out with lots of IT term.. oh.. dai kiraaiii...

6) After an hour, he call me (the IT department) ask me to do this and that. And yes, he keep saying, this is very serious matter. Trying to fix it back. If it turn to be ok, great. but if its back to the problem, o'ooo..

7) Ok, then.. wait a little bit.. yatta.. its turn out success.. 5.15 pm.. balik rumah to prepare the berbuka puasa.. happy happy days.. lalalalala..

8) Buka Puasa.. then, to alamanda, watching Pakcik Batman who still kakkoii..

9) 12.00 plus.. home.. check out the email.. aaaaaaaarghhhhh...its being blocked again.. otoke.. how its gonna be this Tuesday.. The IT Department gonna call me back and asking lots of stuff again. And yes, he said already, if this occurred again, don't know how.. aigoo... this is soooo freaking out.. and I'm waiting for a reply email too....

Ok, this 3 days weekend not gonna be a happy happy day to me for sure.. oh, hackers please stop giving me nightmare while I'm not yet sleeping.

Seriously, I letey, everyday encounter with tone of problem, buchou, pekeliling stuff, integrity things n etc2..

and when its come to shigoto stuff, though I just pretend to be "ada aku kisah".. but I really care and I MEMANG KISAH SANGAT.

oh... mental break down lagi.. Dugaan tuhan lagi..

Its gonna be alright right? hopefully, amin...

PS: I did realize, sighing over and over again and publish my keluhan hati, its just don't right.. but..

PPS: The IT department ask me (while waiting the PC changes here and there) did ask me, permanent or contract? I said, permanent. Oh, lucky, after grad, just being hired here? Me: I wait for 2 years ok.. (dlm hati, I just happen to grad one year earlier from other but I don't thinks its just merely lucky)..

Gonna thinking this problem till Tuesday and keep thinking until its settle down..

Pakcik Batman tolong belasah the hacker laju2.. (T.T)

Don't get it why?

The n3 today is:

When there's a situation, guy/ boyfriend/ husband/ equivalent cheating on his women/ girlfriend/ wife/ equivalent....

Women/ equivalent gonna say: andwaeee... why too cruel? how can't it happen? unbelievable.. arinaitsunooo..

When counter this situation, I'm gonna said: come on lah, guys.. they can be such a jerk.. so believe it.. it happen not only in samarinda drama, slot akasia or etc2 as one of my friend's sister in law said: drama adapted from the real life..

Yes, betullah tu.. and women could be such a jerk jgk.. if not, there's no need H*LL in this world.. kn??

Just, a gentle reminder for myself: Don't become one...

lalalalalalalala....

Tonight...
We are young....
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Hujan Centa a.k.a Love Rain a.k.a Sarang Bi

Should I translate to Cinta Hujan?

Whatever…

Hujan Centa kind of more interested, I guess…
Actually it is a title for Korean drama which the last episode aired about 4/5 weeks ago.

Overall, I must say: not very much recommend to watch drama but…

If you’re somewhat like… kyaaaa!!! Whenever you saw or heard anything bout this JGS/ JKS / prince/ my dear oppa.. DO WATCH!!!!

Or fanatic to SNSD, also it must be in your wajib tonton drama as the Yoona being the heroin.

For the start, I feel like.. omo-omo, his hair, wey!!!!! Butsu, dai kiraai but when the 70’s end, and taaraa… its 2012… Oppa turn to be super handsome.. (kyaaa, blushing!!!!!)

Ok, its sound like I’m super hentai but whatever laaa…

The synopsis (+etc) as follow:

The drama begin with In Ha (hero 70’s) fall for Yoon Hee (heroin 70’s) within 3 second (is that possible, I want to also, geh!!! but even with oppa, I did take more than days to love him, o’oo).

But as In Ha best friend also fall for the same girl.. more o’oo right?

And as typical Korean drama, must be triangle (and more) relation. There is she, Hye Jung love In Ha but being loved Chang Mo but being loved by In Sook.. (super complicated).. All of them end up to be buddy in a same college. As story goes, the In Ha like, my best friend fall for her, so, ok, let it be, not like, I love her also, best man win.. Oh, how lucky you, but does make In Ha.. Pathetic… And Yoon Hee, ok, agree being a couple with the best friend though that she and In Ha love each other, well, just keep the feeling in their heart until die..

But, they just don’t. Ok, the love is too innocent, we have to tell them the truth..

o’oooo…

Havoc as, wey, this best friend turn to some kind of jerk?? Andwae!!! You should tell them from the start and don’t accept anyone feeling as it is, ok, nothing to lose what.. Pathetic … That’s the word I think…

And, more havoc when In Ha had to go to the army as relating with plagiarism and Yoon Hee having some of chronic disease. So, sayonara, the heroin go to US for the treatment, and hero for army..

Separation…
As its 70’s, there’s no Facebook yet even Friendster.

30 years later…

Joon (son of In Ha and Hye Jung (divorce)) and Ha Na (daughter of Yoon Hee and husband at the State (dead)) met. Like father and son, Joon did fell for Ha Na, yes within 3 second – I don’t know how much I thought bout it, I’ll never get it – people can’t fall for anyone in just 3 second. Zettai muri-muri…

And there were funny-funny scene as Joon the super kakkoi photographer proposing the Ha Na to be his girlfriend. Ha Na for the start having crush for her sunbae but when she know the fact that sunbae already fiancé, she step out though that sunbae actually also have feeling for her. And yes, who can replace the super charming of my oppa right, hohoho (sunbae xhensem lgsg but super rich =p)…

Of Course, Joon and Ha Na become couple. But not that long.. because, his father (In Ha) and Ha Na’s Mother (Yoon Hee) met again. In Ha did search for this women all time along but Hye Jung lie to him that she already dead. For sure, this ahjussi super happy as his lover come back to life (if you love her that much, why did you get marry and making baby, so then everyone suffering – neotemunne). And yes, loveee in the air.. they decided to get marry.. omo-omo, how bout their child.

When Joon found out his father relationship with Ha Na mother and realising how good this Ha Na towards her mother, ok, we need to break up. Wey?? – don’t get it why as it might be awkward relation but even in Islam, its allow as they were from different mom and dad (shaking head, Korean drama)..

Ha Na like? Wut do I wrong, as Joon didn’t give the reason. And.. found out also.. sadness, crying here and there.. I seriously don’t like sad drama. Joon like, I don’t want this, I want you. Lets explain to them. And the Hye Jung (Joon’s mother) step in. Yoon Hee, why you such a bitch, I want my ex husband back (this ahjumaa seriously psycho). Ok, the explanation stop but then In Ha saw them together. And matta, In Ha, for the sake of others, sayonara Yoon Hee (this time, I can accept as for the sake of his only son). The wedding went off. The Psycho ahjuma like hoyeah but.. o’ooo… Joon and Ha Na… They were like, happy but, their parents suffering (not very happy la jugak)… Then its getting complicated as Yoon Hee having another disease (matta) and will be blind.. otokke!!!!....

The Ahjuma also found out.. My lovely son, not with that women’s daughter, arasso!!! They never give up as love rain pouring their heart (aigoo, did I type this?)..

Then, as the ending come closer, Yoon Hee went to State alone to have the treatment. Success!!! In Ha also went to be with Yoon Hee (as friend). The ahjuma don’t oppose the relationship. And Finally, Joon and Ha Na getting married.. yattaaaaa… Happy
Ending…

PS: My Oppa does have a lot to hide… hoho… Oh Please, I’m not that hentai… (^.^)

PPS: Love the scenery in the drama.. how I want to watch the diamond snow in Nihon… mitainaaaa!!!!

Bicara Hatikah?

Women…

Are they that weak?
Recently, lots of movie/ drama made adaption from novel and most of the story ala2 Korean style. And what about Korean style is, the girl gonna fall in love first and some kind of… gonna berkorban apa saje for the guy which is…. I don’t like…

Bicara Hati Novel, by Damya Hanna.. my neechan buy dat novel and I read it, I think during my skool time or 1st year uni.. and.. tadaaa…. the novel made into drama.
I suka the novelist name, siap thinking bout giving my twin name, as damia hana n dania hani, mia n nia…haha.. stop talking about things, which is……(lost word oh)…

Omo.. excited.. then, now already ep 10, little bit frustrated bcz there’s changes here and there. So, I coming home searching for the novel to reread, so that I can find the differences, is it the zahlia in the novel is like that? But… xjumpa maa…. Doko ni?

Then, I buy the new one..


Reread it for a night.. penat oh… lama suda left behind the hobby: reading…
Then, ok, zahlia in the novel its more ok ok than the one in drama. No pink eye shadow being mention at least. Linda ok, marsha do the good job, but no insaf scene as in drama, marsha tetibe solat.. what the?? Tengku shahran… erm, bolehlaah, hensem… (^.^)…

But.. after reread the novel, I did notice I hate a few scene which is dolu, xperasan pn.. maybe dulu, I just feel that should be when you falling in love, oho, am I in love that time? But now, which no love feeling for a guy, I did think, some of action taken by zahlia, some kind of…. Aigooo….

1st about the contract, xboleh touching2.. why u xbangkang kt shah tu, when he said, the condition is, u must call him as abang, no matter of time.. so dat with ur condition, no touching for… whenever right??

2nd, whenever shahran said, wife derhaka kt husband, will berdosa.. so, why can’t you zahlia said, if you love me, how could you, make me some kind of wife y derhaka, if a husband redha je, xberdosa la kot? Hehe.. xsure jgk hokum hakam ni..

3rd, ada scene, shahran did something… omo… a husband, how could u… whenever your blindly jealous arouse, u just did horrible2 thing to her.. n she… after a few sory2 word, tears in his eye.. ok, forgiven.. How could a husband did not believe a women, who… he… kononnya.. love very2 much… oho… pathetic husband and wife.. why, is dats easily? Is that what we call it as LOVE? I wonder…

4th, scene yang last2, faizal gonna rape zahlia… oho… a guy coming, to send a thing, then.. why this women, zahlia who live alone, invite him to minum2.. eh? Mmgla, just sit down outside, but u’re alone babe.. n, yaa… novel, kenala happy ending.. zahlia saved… n finally happy ever after…

Conclusion: I just don’t ever get it, why. but as in reality, women, did those thing.. mengalah apa saje when she’s falling in love.. omo… women, get a hold of yourself, a wife oklah, mesti taat right? But as GF je… xpyhla. B4 kahwin pn, behave cm hantu, n if after, u think dats he’s gonna change? Hopefully but please… I do believe the first impression first.. I do judge a book by its cover first. I do assume a character by first meeting first..

PS: last time, balik kg, I drove my mom to visit my future sister in law, hehe, if their jodoh ada la, da 5 years couple kot… n tiba2, my brother’s future mother in law, said: dah keje elok2 ni, kena cari dahlah, muka ni, kena letak y ke2, eh, bkn y ke 3, memulanya, agama dia, then perangai dia..

Me: senyum2 saje..

Dlm hati: grrrrrrr… eh what the what kn.. ok, wife as makmum have to choose her imam.. but, I don’t know how this applicable.. I think it same goes in auditing proses. We can’t choose the auditor but we can reject the given auditor. Erm, maybe, kalaulah, ada orang meminang, kita blh reject org itu but not, we are the one, whose go for the meminang a guy.. erm.. is that?? Hehe.. I did apply my new knowledge in my life.

But ahjuma, actually I nak reply like this tp dh nk maghrib kn, so dat I mls la, ok the true answer is: currently, ahjumashi, mmgla, 25 years, my friendss (plural) dh ada baby dh. Kerja, Alhamdulillah, stabil la, insyaALLAH… tapi.. the problem is: no one falling in love with me and I also don’t fall for anyone and even if I did, otokajo? Masuk meminang ke? Haish… muri des… its not bout soal memilih, is not bout xmencari, its just.. jodoh.. kt tangan tuhan kn, macam mati jgk.. so, just don’t ask if u not receiving any invitation card.. don’t ever bother, kerja tuhan semua tu, don’t ever bother,if someone daughter, berat jodoh… Doa-doakan lah, the happiness of other, bukan spreading the bad thing bout others.. kannn..

Me: if people said to me, linn, jangan memilih sangat, jangan jual mahal sgt, oho… what the what, ckpla apa saje… u’re not in my shoes, nanti bg jwpn kejam cm kwn neechan kn, mau menangis u, hehe, her answer to a married women who ask her: bila nak kahwin w/pun dh terang lg bersuluh dia tu single: dah akak bila nk bercerai? Tak tahu kn, so sy nk kawin bile pn xtau jgk la.. jodoh kn kt tgn DIA…

hahaha... pdn muka akk tu, bergenang air mata tp dh every day tanya, menyampah kn. dis is issue is so damn sensitive for 30+ women. and I.. approaching.... (T.T)...

when no one understand n not even try....

Dear lynn-linn sama,

Lately, u some kind of... sigh over and over..
Which is not a good thing to do as a muslimah, u should redha with the musibah given to u..

The test given was never a test, u couldn't pass over with but as a very bad time management, everything gonna get chaos which is u... hontouni, dai kiraaaiiii.....

As second fly by, more things get complicated. Senpai gonna said, life, the time make us better.

But for some extend, u never learn... n don't even want to learn.

As people.. is people.. stranger or even close one..

Never get to empathy other people.. Whatever they said, I faham or etc etc...

Please don't simply utter out as u really mean it.

because u eventually, just don't...

It's not about the credit u got, not about experience u gain..

Just u know urself better than anyone else.

The things u manage to do or not...

Capable or not..

People just gonna judge..

and... the pain, only u will felt it..

owh.. pain n sickness n illness n hurting.. could u just be on any organ which is visible.. which is, people gonna said.. omooo... she's in pain.

but, it was invisible.. apeunji.... hontouni... itaaaiyooo...

(T.T)....


---> u're surely grammar and vocabulary failed, buchou said: syazlin, u ni, masih tak tau ke 1 perkataan o x, ade kot2 lagi... omo, I meme laa... dari kecik, language mmg fail.. walaupun I score A but just on paper, same goes as subject history, ayh I sad: haish, lin xbelajar sejarah ke dulu... (T.T).. I got A1 ok, bcz u la, I try the hardest bcz u ever said u got A, so, as the daughter, I have to even feel like vomiting to learn them.. huhu...

moral of da n3: u eventually capable if u ever try to just u urself... some kind of lazy human being.. duhhhhh.....

off to work.. with new goal, new courage n..... new attitude?? (eh???)

aigoo.... cik linn....

I quote the following sentence from a Korean drama. Do agree with the sentence.. owh, writer, u’re saigou…

Human A: A heart isn’t some revolving door where a bunch of people can go in and out.

Human B: Not. Chigaimas, feeling is an easiest thing in the world. It’s open up once you close your eyes and not a revolving door but like a merry go round. It’s a thing that can be enjoyed by many people happily...

Is Human A or human B is correct? Both I think. There’s a time, a heart is like a merry go round but sometimes its become a treasure box. Once its close, its so damn hard to open and could be remain shut. Or just like a door, anyone can enter . anyone can come and go. Or what else..


Ps: pesal cm melo je n3 nih.. omoya.. (T.T)… every month demam ni, letey la… n 2 hari ni, allergic pulak melanda... redhala menerima kesakitan ini....

a person who is charmless, only have to do her work correctly....

A sentence quote somewhere...

Byk2 n3 x dipost because all n3 hanging... how i want to cite2 lots of thing happen to me before 2011 end..
1st time pegi concert KPOP..
1st time hiking tnpa dipaksa...
do something which is I feel like, arinaiiiitsunooo....
but those, past oready
now.. oready 2012....
n I will be 25th (jika masih diberi peluang bernafas)...
omo.. silver jubilee age....
my early 20's oready gone... then, its gonna, my late 20's...
aigooo... scary, ya..
like, much2 thing I didn't achieve as I dream b4..
erm.. dreaming... lama xbuat...
hontouni.. kowaiii if been asked, what's your cita2...
don't have any specific...
just, live happily... I guess...
but not dat happy as I wish..
but not dat sad as I never wish...
just...
speechless la linn....
2012, 25 years old...
kalau dikenang, zaman skolah..
cikgu ask me to draw mind mapping..
what will be you after, 1, 5, 10 years later..
I guess, I blur how to draw it out..
bcz... future, mana tau cikgu..
kita hanya merancang, tuhan y tentukan...
but, dats is, cikgu suruh rancang la ni..
ok..ok.. wakatta..
I'm not going to recall of course..
lost lots of memory.. omo, I'm aging...
wrinkle2 slowly appear... tulang2 feel weaker..
oh, should I drink anlene???

ok.. oyasumi, esok keje...

lalalallalala..... happy people pass my way... tiba2 lyrics lagu mandy...
owh, geun suk-san..




otanjoubi omedetou lynnlinn-sama...